somedays you just feel like crying

so lets see, how am i doing? well i feel like i just need to cry. you ever get like that, where you are so mad, frustrated, or even just sad at watching things and knowing nothing you say or do will change it so you just feel like crying? maybe i am too sensitive although if you ask some i am a bitch. i don't know. funny how people always know more about me than i do, i love that they got me figured out and all that jazz. anyway so me and leah got a new apartment, its like right next to the psychology building, behind the demonstration school, we are going to move in today. its so huge it even has an upstairs. i mean its a house! its huge and people can't say they can't come visit us now because we are right outside the gates. other than that just going to classes and whatever, got a essay due tomorrow but they were sold out of the books at the bookstore when i actually had money to get it and now i don't so i have to wait but the essay has to pertain to the chapter, might go to the library and see what they got but that will have to be when i can actually spare an hour and i don't see that happening right now. maybe at eight or something i could and finish it up before 11 tomorrow morning. not sure. so i haven't talked to any of my family since sunday night when i tried to get my grandmother and them to come up here and stay with us for a few days but they couldn't because of their jobs. so i really hope they are okay because i am going home this weekend and i hope all is well. but maybe b'haven didn't get too much, maybe their electricity knocked out or something. i heard something the other day and i think it a lil true, you should not name a hurricane after a strong name, name it something wimpy so that it will be wimpy. gosh people LOL :). i really need to get some sleep, but again won't happen anytime soon. maybe this weekend i hope. gonna be glad to just have a weekend to myself where no one up here will know where i am, i mean really know. i can go do whatever i want to and leave the drama behind. because really there is some unneccessary drama going on right now. and i am trying to just go to class and the apartment and stay out of it, but its hard when you just want to solve it. i would really like to rant but i think i will just scream really loudly in my head and wait. wish my big was here, it would help me out alot, so if you do happen to read this please email me or something. well gotta go to chemistry. ya have fun, a hopefully a lot better day than i feel i am going to have.